Carried

My feelings are complicated  i don't know how my emotions are controlled by something inside me, i think i may lost my thoughts 

                                             i was already pushed away by people but my interest wasn't moved a little bit 

I search for pleasure but i stuck into a addictive behavior my mind is fully prepared to enjoy but i feel numb

I'm not a narcissist but my actions portrait it 

I'm have done nothing but people doesn't like me 

I'm done with "believe in yourself," "chase your dreams," "don't waste time"

                                     I don't need a career right now i don't need a personality development i don't need a good talk 

                              All i need is a person who can care about me and understands me i can't find that in this world  

             I talk to God pray to God about my situational adaptation I'm not chameleon I'm just carried out by the fear 

                              I just avoid the problem so it can pass away from me i don't regret the things but the things i do effect me in an embarrassing way every step i take makes me worthy from the lower step i took 

                               I compete myself to carry out my mistakes from me i don't compare because i know my worth because of God